Sunday, February 29
[my father]last night we went over to my aunty and uncle's place for dinner (my father's slightly younger half-brother) along with my cousin and his wife, and this other couple we'd never met before. i know i've complained about my father before, but last night i was just so embarrassed, it was unbelievable. and i don't think i'd be wrong in saying my sister probably felt the same way.
the food was good, we had some lovely drinks, and the conversation was interesting, to say the least. except that as the night progressed, my father was of course, getting more and more drunk. which means he gets more and more opinionated, and extremely loud. it's almost as if he knows whatever he's spouting doesn't really make sense so he makes up for it by shouting it to everyone.
my father thinks he's right. all the time. now it doesn't matter if you're an expert in your field, or if you've studied whatever topic it is for years and years. he's right. and that's the end of it. during one of his long rants, i turned to one of the guests next to me and said 'he's always right, it's just easier to nod and say ok!'
i don't know why i feel this way about my father, but i always feel so embarrassed to have him around. i used to like to have little gatherings at my house, but my father would take that as an excuse to start drinking, and eventually he'd start lecturing everyone about something or other with his voice getting louder and louder.
and then there's that god awful pipe of his that just STINKS. i don't care what people say about pipe smoke smelling nice - it DOES NOT. especially not when he's smoking AT THE DINNER TABLE, while you're STILL EATING.
i think i'm eloping next time, just so he doesn't have to walk me down the aisle (in all my dreams about my wedding day, that has NEVER been something that was part of it!) and so him and his drunk friends won't have to come to my wedding dinner. he's bad enough on his own, once you add in his friends it's like an MCP meeting with free alcohol.
*shudder*
Saturday, February 28
[oh my]it seems like the week's just flown by. it's finally finally friday though, despite the fact that i woke up this morning thinking it was saturday. the week started off quite slowly, and i had no idea if the weekend was ever going to arrive. but then suddenly *zoom* it was here!! i think it could be the amount of work that's suddenly rolled onto my desk, so it looks like next week will be very very busy for me.
hopefully i'll be able to hold on to my sanity though!
okay so i guess really that's my update for the week.
Monday, February 23
[so-called]those have to be the two more irritating and useless words i have ever heard in my life.
so-called.
how can something be 'so-called'? it's either called something or it's not. there's no in-between with that.
someone even asked me once 'what's your so-called position?'. i was rather stunned actually. i didnt' realise my position was so-called, i thought it was mine! and i was quite certain it was a real position, with a real title of editorial assistant.
it's almost as if the person doesn't believe you. and they don't want to be rude, so they say so-called. but isn't that just worse?
imagine this:
'what's your so-called husband's name?'
'so-called husband? he IS my husband. we got married! signed the certificate and everything! you don't believe it? you want to see the cert yourself?!'
i really don't get it.
Sunday, February 22
[a step forward in life]it seems like there's alot of people getting married this year and it's almost like an epidemic! okay, so i probably shouldn't talk about weddings and marriages that way. and maybe i really should accept the fact that i'm getting to that age where everyone around me is slowly starting to take that step forward in their lives. but really, i can never stop grinning everytime someone tells me that they're getting married. i think it must be the hopeless romantic in me. and i love hearing the stories about how the engagement happens, even when it's the most bizarre, it's like no two are ever alike. and yes, i admit i like seeing the rings too. hey, diamonds are a girl's best friend!
but congratulations to everyone getting married... i'm sure there'll be a few more people this year telling me that they're getting married soon. and if my sister is one of them, i'll be very very very happy! *grins*
i've also made a very big decision in my life. one that's literally going to alter the way i see things. well, maybe it's more like it will alter the way people see me (i'm not going for lasik surgery, if that's what anyone was thinking). it's something that i've been wanting to do for a while, and i think it's time i took that step forward and stopped just talking about it. i'm scared though and i can't imagine anyone in the same position as me not being scared.
i know i know, i'm being sort of vague now, but in time you'll come to realise what i'm talking about. for the moment i'm still coming to terms with it myself, so once i'm comfortable i'll let the whole world know.
just wish me luck!
[my good deed]
i was at the supermarket today with chad when we wanted to get some ice cream. that's not a very unusual thing to do, afterall the both of us do like our ice cream quite alot. except that every tub we picked up was soft. and it wasn't just one tub. it was almost every single tub, across all the different brands. in fact, i think the only one that wasn't soft was ben and jerry's! (or maybe that's just a sign that i should have just gone with the ben and jerry's ice cream)
so in the end i went up to one of the more senior looking people at the supermarket and told him that he might want to check on the ice creams, because they weren't looking very good. and i think he must have listened because a while later, two of the supermarket people were going through all the tubs of ice cream in the aisle.
see! i did a good deed! otherwise someone might have ended up with melted ice cream leaking all over the rest of their groceries, or worst still gotten really bad food poisoning. and food poisoning is never fun. and it didn't seem like anyone else was saying anything to the supermarket people about it either!
Wednesday, February 18
[warm fuzzy feelings]it's always nice when someone tells you that they appreciate all the things that you've done for them. and even though you talk everyday, and you're always there for one another, sometimes we still don't say it enough. but it's always nice to hear..
"i can easily say that you're one of my bestest friends.
i speak to you everyday..
i see you more often than any one of my friends....
we like most of the same things....
and you're always there when i need you...
and even when i don't"
and she even gave me a gold star for that!
i feel so honoured!
but most of all i'm honoured to have a friend like her. she's the type that will ring in the middle of the night because i've just had my heart broken. or we'll just sit in her balcony and talk about life and love and other silly things.
and without her, i'd probably have badly dyed hair.
some friends come and go through life. others stick by you through life.
thanks for being one to stick by me :)
Tuesday, February 17
[days at home]i'm currently on a two day MC because of a bad gastric attack that came out of nowhere on sunday afternoon. now, before i start getting lectures from everyone about skipping meals and that sort, i can assure you - i don't skip meals. i love my food too much to want to skip meals. so this gastric attack (or so the doctor says) is probably from something that i ate that didn't quite agree with my stomach. so here i am, two days later with something that's still in my stomach disagreeing with it. but i do feel alot better than i did yesterday, but the thought of food is still not very appealing.
i've been drifting in and out of sleep, although at one point i did dream about going to the supermarket and buying some orange juice. i think i was just a bit tired of drinking warm water all the time!
hmm okay time to drift back to sleep...
Tuesday, February 10
i got this from keryl, who got it from rainia, who got it from someone else!and just like keryl i'm going to put my own little comments... they'll be the bits in the brackets!
Pisces
I would be very surprised to find out that you did not keep a journal (yes, i guess that's what you'd call this blog!). You have an abundance of creativity and imagination, and you have to put it somewhere (yeah, when i don't i feel a bit odd!). Your journal is a place for dreamy contemplation. It is probably completely disorganized, with words, scribbles, and doodles on every square inch of paper, in no particular order. You are the sign most likely to use whatever notebook that happens to fall into your hands (hmm, that's probably why i hoard notebooks at work!). You are adept at both poetry and prose, and you also try your hand at songwriting. You probably like to paint, too. Beyond these things, your journal pages are a veritable sea of emotions. Sometimes, in order to protect yourself, you wear a mask of indifference in daily life (how do these people know!?). However, you still put your true feelings down on paper. Every now and then, there are long passages full of self-pity or narcissism. And, once in a blue moon, when you are really angry, you may let loose some scathing sarcasm or satire (hah! just wait till you hear me when i'm going full steam)
Use your journal to help you decide where to spend your energy. You are highly susceptible to toxic environments and toxic people (oh man that's so true!). Regularly reviewing your journal entries and paying attention to your various emotional states can help you get rid of both. Somewhere prominent in your journal, create a list to remind yourself of what you truly want (i have lists of lists at work, if that counts). Then, devise a plan of action to help you get those things. If you don't have them already, get books that have unlined pages. You are not going to stay within the lines anyway; why put boundaries on your creativity? Consider keeping a separate movie journal (oh that's a good idea actually.... i'll need another notebook for that too!). Alternatively, keep a pop culture journal in which you explore cultural trends and modern myths. Both of these are right up your cosmic alley.
Your key words are: emotional, imaginative, impressionable, vague, receptive, romantic, and sensitive.
Your key karmic phrase is: I Believe.
What is your favorite escape? (to anywhere but here... but spas are good!)
What is your attitude toward material possessions? (cool to have, fun to play with, but not really all that necessary)
How do you feel about boundaries? (i have mine, you have yours. sometimes they overlap, sometimes they don't. just make sure you know when it does and doesn't!)
Freewrite on the following word: compassion. (compassion is something i wish more people had)
Have you ever had a premonition that came true? Describe the circumstances. (this happens more often than i can even recall. i always get the strongest sense of dejavu through the week. but the one thing i always trust is my gut instinct. it's never been wrong so far!)
How do other people's feelings and emotions effect you? (it affects me alot. for some reason i tend to 'absorb' people's feelings and emotions sometimes. i don't even know why! but at the same time i always waet to help the person, and talk to them, and be there for them.)
Sunday, February 8
[my sunday in]i love the discovery channel, there's so many things that you can learn from it in just one afternoon! and hey, it's definitely alot better than watching horrible c grade movies on AXN sometimes. even though i'll admit that i get sucked into watching those once in a while. there's just something about a really bad movie that you just have to keep watching until it's done. of course, once it's finished you sit there and wonder why you wasted two hours watching a movie that had a horrible plot, bad acting and sub-standard CG effects. but that's life i guess!
but it's nice to just sit and lounge the whole day. I've hardly had to get out of my oversized chair the whole day because the laptop is just in front of the tv. this is bliss i tell you! the only thing that was missing was a nice champagne cocktail, but i don't think i can spoil myself that much!
my sister and her boyfriend are in the kitchen at the moment making pigs in a blanket. i think the two of them are a pretty good match for each other - he loves cooking and baking, and my sister likes eating. of course, so does he, judging from his size.. hehehe
yesterday i finally rode my bike! it's been a while since i managed to get the time to do it because it was raining and raining, and then i got sick. but man, am i unfit! i didn't ride that far, just to pine grove and back (with a break of about three hours in between). it was great to be on a bike again, with the wind in my hair (another reason for me to grow my hair long!) and it wasn't as tiring as i thought it was going to be. the only thing that killed me the most was trying to get my bike back up the stairs to my place. i think that was harder than the return bike trip!! but now i am on my way to a (slightly) healthier lifestyle! one step at a time.. heheheh
hmm sunday night is almost finished. i better keep lounging around, before it's too late!
Thursday, February 5
[one week left]i was lying in bed talking on the phone the other night, when the topic of 'what would you do if you had one week left to live?' this is, of course, considering that money is no option, and that my friends and family come along and do these things with me.
so this is what i would do if i had one week left to live:
1) go sky diving
2) watch U2 in concert
3) go on set to a real hollywood movie - an epic like Lord of The Rings would be great!
4) go to new york
5) sit in the two seater McLaren F1 car
6) take lots and lots of photographs
7) watch all the movies i've ever wanted to watch
Tuesday, February 3
[three little words]it's been one of those weeks. i realise it's actually only tuesday, but since monday everything and anything has just gone wrong. my computer has crashed and burned and refuses to work now, despite the fact that all three hard drives have no problem with them (i suspect the computer got my virus!). ordinarily it's not that bad, except that i hade some work that i'd been doing for 3 days, and it was due this morning at 9am. but with the computer completely crashed, there was no way that i could hand it in. and no, i didn't back it up or save it anywhere else. sigh!
so that was monday. this morning i woke up feeling extremely tired (i'd slept late trying to fix the computer). my stomach was bloated and uncomfortable. once i got changed and off to work i didn't like the shoes that i was wearing. then i went to the hairdressers, which normally makes me much happier. except i didn't like the way they had blow-dried my hair today. i kept thinking i looked like a 30 year old tai tai with just way too much time, and nothing better to do than go to the hairdresser's to get her hair blow-dried. so i went back and got them to redo it. so that made things a little better.
but nevertheless, i still had to finish my article, and that meant trying to find a spare laptop that someone had lying around that i could borrow for the next few days (thank you larries!). and things just seem to pile up. i know everything doesn't sound that bad, but when you have all these little things that just keep going wrong. there doesn't seem to be any way to make the day go well...
except when you hear those three little words.
no, not the ones that you're thinking of, although that would have been nice!
but it was the words:
"I'm getting married!!"
it's such a wonderful thing to have a friend tell you that they're getting married, and what happened today was that my colleague (and a friend!) came over to give me a big hug. and at that point i was thinking how wonderful it was, because of the day i'd just had. then as she was hugging me she whispered 'i'm getting married!'
i'm still grinning from her news :)
who knew that three little words could just change the day around.
about me
i'm 24, a pisces, working in a magazine, sitting back and watching life go by.
i love escaping into movies and magazines, and most of all my friends.
but for now just relax, life will happen when it happens.
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