Thursday, May 29
i got an email from a friend and in it she said one of the sweetest things i've ever heard.."someday you will find me, caught beneath a landslide, like a champagne supernova in the sky..
its funny, i was just looking at those words after i wrote them (do you still love that song? i heard it the other day and it reminded me of you!!) and i don't really know what the song means but..it feels like..somtimes something or someone that is so bright and full of life, gets caught under a landslide of life circumstances..but it doesnt stop, the supernova (like my d) will keep burning with life and love and passion, lighting up the lives of those she meets.."
it was really great to know that someone out there thinks of me that way.. especially after a really tiring day at work..
i feel so loved!
Wednesday, May 28
last night i was talking to a wonderful friend of mine in australia, and as she was talking to me about all the things in my life, she said 'let's play the 'if this world was perfect' game.'so what would i have in a perfect world?
in a perfect world, i'd be living in my apartment in melbourne again
in a perfect world, all my friends would be living on the same floor as me in that apartment building
in a perfect world, i'd have a job that i loved doing, a job that would always inspire and challenge me
in a perfect world, i'd be happy with everything that i had
in a perfect world, i would never be disappointed or hurt.
in a perfect world, i'd learn to trust people.
in a perfect world, my wardrobe would be killer! i'd be such a fashionista.
in a perfect world, i'd have a car to drive around
in a perfect world, i'd have a tan
in a perfect world, i'd always have something witty to say.
in a perfect world, the cute guys would come and talk to me, not the ugly geeky ones.
in a perfect world, my hair wouldn't have all those weird kinks in them and it wouldn't be so frizzy
in a perfecr world, my eyes wouldnt' get dry in the office all the time, giving me that awful headache
in a perfect world, i'd get free movie passes all the time
in a perfect world, impatience would be something that i never felt.
in a perfect world, happiness would be much easier to achieve
in a perfect world, i'd always have a great guy to look after me, and i'd look after him too
in a perfect world... i'd probably be bored to death coz everything was going so damn well!
hahaha, what would your perfect world scenario be?
Sunday, May 25
i'm a wee bit melancholy today. i don't really know why actually... but i guess it's just one of those times.i read one of the books that i bought on my book binge called 'straight talking'. and i have to admit that for the first 20 pages i didn't really quite like it. but i thought since i'd already bought it, i might as well just keep on reading. and i'm glad that i did, because in the end i realised that i've never ever read a book that echoed my life so clearly.
makes you feel a bit scared actually. and it just makes you sit and think about your own life.
but i'm not going to do that here.. i think there are just some things that you just can't find the words to say.
but i can say that the weekend seems to have gone way to fast. i went swimming on saturday and for the first time in a long long long time, i actually put on sunblock instead of tanning oil! and my skin is thanking me for it now. i'm one of those people who are blessed (or cursed) with fair skin. and for as long as i can remember i've always wanted to be tanned. one of those grass is always greener on the other side sort of syndrome. so i've always tried to tan myself, but i usually end up turning myself this lovely shade of bright pink, before i start to peel and then turn a shade of brown that isn't too bad. lately though, i've decided that going through that stage of bright pink and peeling isn't really worth the slight brown stage. so alas, i shall have to tan the safe way - using sun block and gradually. but hey, at least i can get some swimming out of it. i could do with the exercise!
the rest of the night i didn't do anything very spectacular, although i was kinda itchy to go out somewhere with good music and good drink. but i stayed home instead. i can't remember what i did... oh that's right, i put up my melbourne pictures! i'm losing my memory! doh!
today was my nephew's first month, so i went over to my cousin's place to stuff myself with lots of food and have fun with the little kiddies. i took lots of pictures so i'll put them up soon. you'll probably find my nephew as irresistable as i do! and all my relatives made fun of me, saying that the kids loved to be carried by me coz it was so comfortable for them. ha ha. i did have a couple of relatives commenting on my appearance in cleo too, but since they're my relatives, i didn't take offence to what they said! (it was along the lines of 'are you sure that was you? you looked really good! did they do any camera tricks???' my relatives, you gotta love 'em) but all in all it was fun. i love seeing the little kiddies!
and since then i've been at home, reading and soaking in the bathtub. one of my favourite ways to destress (typical pisces i am). it's almost as if i can wash away whatever bad mood i've been in and come out refreshed. all that scrubbing in the bath probably helped too, and hey, i've got soft skin to show for it now anyways.. heheh!
so tomorrow starts a new week ahead.. at the moment i'm not sure if i'm looking forward to it or not. but at least i already know what i'm going to wear! *wink* thanks to you!
Saturday, May 24
okay, i've finally found myself with a bit of time, and the actual urge to do something about it, so here are the pictures to my melbourne trip that i took a while back.aaaand that's all for tonight folks!
i like vodka.
i like smirnoff twists.
i like milieu.
but i'm a bit deaf now.
what? what's that you say?
no, i'm sorry, i can't hear you, but the drinks are great!
the crowd was a little young.. everyone looked like they just stepped out of JC.
but i like vodka, so it was alll okay in the end.
pictures comin' soon ;)
Thursday, May 22
arghhh*streetch*
i've had this sore back the whole day, right between my shoulder blades.. i think i might have slept wrong last night.. but who'd have thought you can sleep 'wrong' in the first place eh?
*stretches again*
maybe i need a chiropracter to just give my back a good cracking!
Wednesday, May 21
All around me are familiar facesWorn out places – worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere – going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression – no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow – no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very very
mad world mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday – happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen – sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me – no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me – look right through me
And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very very
Mad world . . . world
Enlarge your world
Mad world
- Mad World by Gary Jules
another lorraine-introduced song that i love.
thought i'd share it with you guys :)
hmm.. i'm waiting for my brain to come back from that sugar rush i gave myself this afternoon after having a pepsi and a snickers bar.
because it's been boiling hot the last few days, i seem to be running out of things to wear to the office. i'm lucky in the sense that i've got a pretty casual office (but that doesn't mean i can turn up in ripped jeans and sneakers! heaven forbid sneakers!!) so at least i don't have to give myself added heatstroke from having to wear a suit. but there's still only so much i can wear when the weather's just roasting everyone alive. i've worn pretty much all my (decent) spaghetti strapped tops, and i'm wondering if i dare venture into wearing a tube top to work. but i guess that could depend on what i wear it with.
i'm rambling aren't i? just ignore me till i figure out what i can wear to work tomorrow! i think i'll go with my brown skirt and maybe a halter top.. so it's not quite a tube!
heheheheh and here's a recipe for butterscotch fudge. why am i putting it up? because i can!
Butterscotch Fudge
Makes 1 - 9x13 inch dish
Cook Time: 10 Minutes
Ready in: 40 Minutes
Ingredients
1 (14 ounce) can sweetened condensed milk
1 (11 ounce) package butterscotch chips
1/2 (11 ounce) package white chocolate chips
1 teaspoon butter flavored extract
1 teaspoon rum flavored extract
Directions
1) In a medium sauce pan over medium heat, combine condensed milk, butterscotch chips and white chocolate chips. Stir constantly until melted and smooth. Remove from heat and stir in butter and rum flavorings. Pour into a 9x13 inch dish, cover and refrigerate until firm, 30 minutes. Cut and serve.
Makes 24 servings
Tuesday, May 20
something that i thought was damn funny..
it's just
tooooo
damn
hot.
Monday, May 19
*arms up in victory*i'm home! it's 5 22pm and i've been home for 22 minutes!
alright it's probably not something i should be gloating about, or announcing for that matter, since my work day isn't supposed to end till 6pm. but i was asked to go and reccee (how come recce never sounds like it looks? it looks more like reecee than recce.. if that makes sense at all!) a house, and it was pretty close to home so i figured by the time i got back to the office, i could only stay about half an hour before it was time for me to leave again. not much point there! and it's boiling boiling hot today. it felt like i was going to have a heat stroke in the office! times like this i reckon we should be allowed to wear our bikini tops around the office. not that anyone would do that anyway, not in women's weekly anyhow! heheheh
i'm just so glad to be home! i can't believe it's only monday now. how come the week always goes so slowly?
i think it's time to turn up the volume, and sing really loud!
c'mon don't be shy.. i know you want to join me!
Sunday, May 18
Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,coffe smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
coffe smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
I'm only here for this moment.
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
How our love will blow it all away.
Such a thing of wonder in this crowd,
I'm a stranger in this town, you're free with me.
And our eyes locked in downcast love, I sit here proud,
Even now you're undressed in your dreams with me.
I'm only here for this moment.
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
How our love will blow it all away.
I know the tears we cried have dried on yesterday
The sea of fools has parted for us
there's nothing in our way, my love
Don't you see, don't you see?
You're just the torch to put the flame
to all our guilt and shame,
And I'll rise like an ember in your name.
You know I, you know I,
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
Let me show that love can rise, rise just like
embers.
Love can taste like the win of the ages, babe.
And I know they all look so good from a distance,
But I tell you I'm the one.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you,
thinks he needs you
And I'll be waiting right here just to show you.
Everyone Here Wants You - Jeff Buckley
this is a song that my lovely friend lorraine introduced me to. she's got impeccable taste in music, except when she goes on a retro binge and wants me to sing cheesy songs at the top of my lungs.. hehehe but i love her anyway!
it's a hot hot sunday.. it almost feels as if we're going through a heatwave here.. *urgh* i think you should be damn glad you're in a cold country right now! i'd give anything to be there now.. at least when the weather's cold you can just bundle up to warm up. even if you take everything off, you're still hot over here!!
singapore's now just a couple of hours away from being declared SARS free! i haven't been very involved in the whole SARS debacle, and i've only really been asked to take my temperature once. but i think it's be great that we've finally gotten it under control. and although i know that sometimes we all complain about the government being so controlling over us, and not really letting us use our freedom of speech, i also know that they're brilliant at containing situations like this. and i believe they've been really honest about what was happening because they didn't want it to turn into another China thing. ('No no, there's no SARS here at all! We have no SARS!... oh okay, maybe we have one or two cases... oh well, maybe it's one or two hundred')
ooh, there's F1 tonight. yipee!
it's such a rare night to be able to see all the stars in the sky, especially when it's at a full moon. singapore always seems to have these cloudy nights where nothing's visible at all. but it's always so beautiful to be able to see the moon so clearly.. just sitting up there in the sky.
the next time you see a full moon in the sky, make a little wish.. it's sure to come true by the next full moon :)
Friday, May 16
[music]i feel like singing at the top of my lungs, just any song that comes to mind..
it's almost like a release for me, because the words know what's inside. some songs just know my mood, and can express what i can't seem to.
music provides the language for my heart and soul to speak.
i'm the sort that can't live without music, and i've always got a song stuck in my head.
sometimes it's a song i like, but sometimes it's a horrible song. i once woke up with a barry manilow song running through my head. i think i must have been having a nightmare before that!
music music, it soothes my soul. it calms my frazzled nerves and gets me energised for a day out.
i like singing loudly when i'm in the car driving by myself... i don't care that other people think i look crazy, coz hey..
at least i'm happy :)
Wednesday, May 14
Hey baby come roundkeep holding me down
and I'll be keeping you up tonight.
The four letter word got stuck in my head
the dirtiest word that I've ever said
it's making me feel alright.
For what it's worth I love you
and what is worse I really do
oh what is worse I'm gonna run run run
'till the sweetness gets to you
and what is worse I love you!
Hey please baby come back
there'll be no more loving attack
and I'll be keeping it cool tonight.
The four letter word is out of my head
come on around get back in my bed
keep making me feel alright.
For what it's worth I like you
and what is worse I really do
things have been worse
and we had fun fun fun
'til I said I love you
and what is worse I really do!
For what it's worth I love you
and what is worse I really do
For What It's Worth - The Cardigans
it's a holiday tomorrow!! glory be!
it sounds kinda sad, but sometimes it's just really nice to have a bit of a break.. what can i say? i'm slowly turning into a disgruntled worker.
i think i'm just restless. maybe i'm just bored.
maybe it's all just PMS! who knows man..
but tomorrow, i watch the matrix reloaded! this should be good.. *rubs hands together gleefully*
oh dear, i'm off to shower before CSI starts!
Tuesday, May 13
Sunrise - You seek to learn all you can so that you
may teach the wisdom of the world to others.
You enjoy tranquility and peaceful beauty, and
like to feel at one with the world.
When are you?
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erm.. that's all i have to say for today..
thanks for dropping by anyway
Monday, May 12
monday monday! i woke up this morning thinking it HAD to be a sundaybut unfortunately, life's played that little trick on me again... but i guess the week had to start at some time, and this was as good a time as any..
am i making any sense?
hehehehehe
*munches on some apples*
i love fruits :)
ooh, and look! it's tuesday tomorrow.. and i have an apple launch to go to!
ahahaha, i'm making no sense am i?
but lookie what i have here! *winks*
Sunday, May 11
they're showing fight club on channel 5. but who are they kidding? they're going to have to cut out about an hour's worth of the movie because of the language and violence..sometimes i wonder why they even bother showing movies like this in the first place!
i'm all for non-censorship and movie ratings instead! i like to watch my movies in full, thank you! edited the way the director intended, thank you. not the way some censorship guy wanted it to be!
yeah, i know.. i complain alot! :P
Saturday, May 10
i woke up this morning, probably a little too bright and a little too early and started on a cleaning binge. i think i may be a cleaning bulimic.once in a while this urge grips me, and i clean. and i become obessively compulsive about it, because i clean like there's no tomorrow. and once that's all over, i'll ignore everything for about a month, and then the whole room becomes buried under handbags, magazines, clothes and whatever else i end up bringing from the office.. the scary thing is that now i'm thinking of doing some yoga, which means i'm also going on an exercising binge.
where did this cleaner, healthier me come from? i swear it wasn't there last night!
Tuesday, May 6
i'm trying to get home.. i'm not in any rush or anything. there isn't a sense of urgency, just that i want to get home. and as i'm moving along and walking through a series of staircases and corridors, i'm not afraid. i don't sense any danger, even though it's at night. but i'm moving very slowly, because it feels like something is holding me back. i'm holding two umbrellas, they're not open, but they're pulling me back as if they were open and caught in a strong wind. i try to move as efficiently as i can, but i know these umbrellas are pulling me back, they're slowing me down.still i don't feel anything but a sense of .. a sense of movement to just keep going. i'm not scared, i'm not frustrated. i'm not even worried that it's taking me so long just to move so little. i'm also trying to keep my umbrellas from poking anyone else that might be around me. i accidently poke a girl walking behind me, and feel a little bad about it.
and then i reach home. it's quite a nice place, not the one i'm living in now, and not any house that i've lived in before, and i have to walk past a brick barbeque area, where there's food all laid out. it looks like a barbeque's about to start, although there's no fire, and no people around.
i never make it in the house though, because that's when i woke up from my dream (or rather, was woken up) ...
there was a whole lot more things going on before that part of the dream, but this is the only part that i remember vividly. and yes, i do dream in colour too.
i looked at an online dream dictionary and it said:
In dreams umbrellas usually symbolize the device that the conscious mind uses to protect itself from the unconscious. Umbrellas might symbolize our unwillingness to deal with negative emotions, psychological baggage, or trauma. If the umbrella is opened, you may be protecting yourself from unconscious materials. If the umbrella is closed, then you may be prepared and be willing to deal with the unfamiliar psyche. Old dream interpretations say that the umbrella is the symbol of security. If the umbrella is broken or turned inside out, your ultimate achievement is possible but delayed.
so what do two closed umbrellas pulling me back mean? and why can't i have nice normal dreams about cute guys instead? those are always much more fun!
Jean Grey:
Powers: Telepathy, telekinesis
What X-Men character are you?
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wooohoo i'm jean grey! who wouldn't want to be her eh?
Sunday, May 4
it's the attack of the monster flax seed buns!well, not really. i think maybe they're more mutant flax seed buns than anything else. my mom and i spent the afternoon making some flax seed buns. it's the first time we've tried this actually, and it was quite fun. except when they just kept expanding. the thing about buns and breads is that you're supposed to leave them to sit for a while, so they can 'grow'. the ones that we've made are already pretty big. and they're still expanding! i'm afraid by the time they're done expanding (it's only been 15 minutes, and they're almost double their size.. there's another 45 more minutes to go) all we'll have is just one huge plate of flax seed dough because they've all just combined with one another!!
sunday's almost over..
i'm kind of sleepy already.. but xmen is on tv tonight, and so is the spanish grand prix.
oh decisions decisions!
Saturday, May 3
birthdate: 5th marchbirthplace: singapore at thomson medical centre, if you have to be precise
dialect/heritage: hokkien, with a touch of teochew
your fears: signs of violence. loss. regret.
i will never ...: bungee jump
dog or cat: dog, when she's not trying to bite me or be naughty, but i don't mind cats either
one nice dog memory: hmm, when she gets that cute little look of 'i'm sorry i was naughty earlier'. you just can't resist a look like that!
mcdonald's or burger king: hmm, probably burger king, but i'm not opposed to mcdonald's either. heck i'll eat anything!
chocolate or vanilla: vanilla with chocolate sauce?
cappuccino or coffee: neither, i don't drink anything with coffee in it!
facve food: depending on my mood, could be japanese, could be italian, could be mexican.. heck, i told you i'll eat anything!
smoke: when i'm stressed. or in a nightclub
cuss/swear: yes. when i start swearing at you, you'll know i'm really really really really angry!
sing: yes. when i'm alone, or with someone i'm really comfortable with. and in the shower, although the radio in the bathroom is going on the blink.
hottest guy on tv: hmmmmm.. that's a tough call. i really wouldn't be able to say!
who do i support in american idol?: none, i don't watch it.
want to go to college: already gone. thinking of going back for masters, but we'll see how that goes.
like high school: i had my good times, i had my bad times. i'd rather just remember it that way.
will you get married?: probably. eventually. maybe. we'll see how it goes!
believe in yourself: sometimes. probably not often enough.
think you're attractive: hah! this is a trick question right?
your best physical feature: my feet, i have nice looking feet, and skinny ankles.
Ever...
played a game that required removal of clothing: yes. and that's all i'm saying.
If so, was it mixed company: yes.
been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes. i do have a life you know!!
been caught "doing something": yes. and no more details for you!
gotten beaten up: i'm so peaceloving!! *ohm*
shoplifted: yes. the queue for the cashier wasn't worth it for $0.95!
changed who you were to fit in: yes, but probably not on purpose.
weirdest compliment: i'm a magnet for weird compliments. 'your sister is so nice and slim, she should be a model. but i'm sure the boys LOVE you!' .... huh?
best compliment: i can't remember any of the best ones. it's always easier to remember what people don't like.
best advice: everything happens for a reason.
number of things in my past that I regret: oh boy, don't get me started on this one!!
the world would be a better place if:
1) i could understand what life was going on about sometimes.
2) i could understand what people were going on about sometimes.
3) i had free movie passes for the rest of my life! hah!
most favorite people in the world: the friends who are never fail me - who are always there for me when i need them, who cheer me up when i'm down, and who always know they can count on me.
a good life is... : good friends, good wine and good conversation.
describe your dream wedding: one where everything goes smoothly. knowing me it'll probably be something a little out of the ordinary.
how do you want to die: peacefully and happily.
what do you want to be when you grow up: an adult.
childhood ambition: i wanted to be a scientist. then i wanted to be a photographer for national geographic. somewhere in there i wanted to be a radio presenter too.
what country would you most like to visit right now: london.
ideal vacations:
1. travelling around australia in a campervan with my loved one, taking my time to get to know the landscape and taking thousands of photographs.
2. any place with a great spa.
3. maldives - clear sparkling blue water, and the perfect beach.
In my former life, I must have been a...: a wandering philosopher. i talked to people everywhere i went and got to know them, through my life i've seen it all and done it all, because i wanted to taste life to its fullest.
In a guy
No. of guys whom I never should have gone out with: 2
No. of guys I didn't regret going out with: 3
No. of guys I should have asked out: way too many to count!
Best eye color? any one's fine with me, as long as they're natural eye colours!
Best hair color? Dark hair.
Short or long hair: Short hair.
Height: From 175 - 185 cm.
Best weight: not obese is fine with me!
Best articles of clothing: really funky print shirts. i love 'em!
Friday, May 2
what i forgot to add in was that yesterday after my computer decided to act male, my dog tried to bite me (she'd eaten a dead bird! and came home to get a major scolding. everyone's ignoring her today, and she's sulking around in a corner somewhere) and then i got a paper cut from my allure magazine.boy was i glad when that thursday was all over. now it's friday night, which means i can sleep in tomorrow! yipee! plus i got a dose of retail therapy after work.
ahh bliss!
Thursday, May 1
[men]i swear, my computer has to be male.
my friend lorraine said 'hey have you seen the trailer for the matrix reloaded yet?' and i thought 'oh no, i haven't! what a good idea, i'll go watch it now..' so off i went to the matrix website to have a look at the trailer.. i clicked on the LARGE button (i want to see it as big as possible of course!) and i waited for it to download.. waited and waited and waited. and when it finally finished, i clicked play. and play it did.... but with no sound.
'you need quicktime 6' it said.. 'in order to view this properly'.
'oh alright, fine i'll download it then. i guess my quicktime 5 isnt' good enough'
so off i go to the quicktime website, which kindly informs me that version 6.1 is available. 'ooh, great! i shouldn't have any problems with that..'
i click on the download button. i let it install. and i go back to the website.
and now quicktime doesn't even work at all.
'what the..?' i think to myself.. it should work, i mean, it's 6.1!! and the version 5 one worked.
alright, new strategy. i uninstall everything quicktime on my computer, and then reinstall it again.
still doesn't work. 'hmmm.. this is getting a bit frustrating.. what the hell's going on?'
so i bring up the quicktime player on its own and tell it to open the URL from there.
'quicktime can't play this file because it doesn't understand the file'
BUT YOU GUYS WERE THE ONES THAT TOLD ME TO DOWNLOAD IT IN THE FIRST PLACE!
*grrrrr*
it doesn't listen, and does the wrong thing. it tells you to do something, and then tells you that's not the way it should have been done.
i swear, my computer is a male.
about me
i'm 24, a pisces, working in a magazine, sitting back and watching life go by.
i love escaping into movies and magazines, and most of all my friends.
but for now just relax, life will happen when it happens.
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