Wednesday, October 30
i've just come to realise that those times i've spent on the train with my nose buried in a book, are times that i really like! i finished love in the time of cholera the other day, and didn't have a book to read on the train ride home. it felt so odd! i had to people watch instead, but the people that i was watching... well, they weren't really worth the energy to watch!! does anyone have any good books to recommend? more books! MORE BOOKS! i just have to be careful not to fall down when i'm standing and reading at the same time.. heheh.. i've almost done it a few times!i've always loved reading, ever since i was a wee little lass. Most kids would plonk themselves down in front of the tv and just spend the rest of the day there, but i'd grab a book and curl up in bed instead. hmm, so maybe it was just an excuse to stay in bed, but at least i was gaining knowledge at the same time! and hey, i could have been a great detective with all the Nancy Drew books i used to read! maybe that's why i like James Bond so much now! heh!
here's the bernard pivot questionnaire, the brilliant host of inside the actor's studio i got the idea from the lovely ryl :)
:what is your favourite word?: hope
:what is your least favourite word?: stupid
:what turns you on?: happiness
:what turns you off?: rudeness
:what sound do you love?: laughter (not shrill laughter, just good ol' hearty laughter)
:what sound do you hate?: sigh of disappointment
:what is your favourite curse word?: baaaastard
:what would you like to heard God say when you arrive at the pearly white gates?: well well well.. look what we have here!
Tuesday, October 29
i've got that feeling that i've forgotten something again.. *furrows brows* and for the life of me i really cant' remember what it is! i just hope that it's not anything that's gravely important.. *scratches head*
Monday, October 28
it's that lull, that break in between issues where the dust settles for a brief moment. it doesn't last long, of course, but it's still nice to have that lull just to get your mind back into working order. we've got our stories for the january issue all lined up, and i'm going to try and keep on top of things, so i don't end up running around like a headless chicken at the last minute trying to pull it all together!my wisdom tooth is giving me trouble again :/ i hope it just grows out, so i can get it over and done with! i just realised that i've been working for three months already! three months! boy does the time fly by quickly. it's odd how it doesn't feel like this is my first job. i was quite scared when i had to go out and start working. although i think i was more scared when i started my internship with harper's bazaar, because that was the first time i had to leave behind the uni life, and venture out into the working world. oh dear, i'm dwelling on the past again!
hmm.. suddenly my mind's gone blank.
here's my horoscope for the week:
You're in Sci-Fi land this week. Mars trines Neptune making for surreal romance, mystery, strange suitors, fated flirtations, serendipity, sensual experimentation and odd yet useful nightmares. Yes, it's the usual Piscean merde to the nth degree. Plus: Venus avec Sun hypes your already OTT allure! Expect an extraordinary tangent to influence any sort of project and plan to benefit. Vow now to not go too far with a single impulse involving deceit or obsession.
hmm! i wonder what it all means!
Sunday, October 27
here's one more test.. kind of interesting!take it if you can..
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[raining like there's no tomorrow]
i don't mean this metaphorically, it really is raining like there's no tomorrow! i can hardly see out my window, and the only thing i can hear (above the mtv coming out of the tv) is the thunder rumbling every few seconds. i think all those days of threatening to rain has finally just poooured down today. it could be good though, at least it'll help clear up some of that awful haze that has been hanging around. i swear, my sense of smell hasn't quite been the same since the haze kicked in!
oh what a cutie pie! pebbles just let out a half howl half growl sound when the thunder cracked! she's such a scaredy cat (haha, shoud be scaredy dog i guess!) for a 'mean' rottweiler. i suspect when we got pebbles, we got the most chicken one out of the lot! she loves to come and sit with us while we're having lunch or dinner, which is kinda cute because she falls asleep while we're eating, and then wakes up to find all of us gone, and then comes trotting through the house looking for us!
i just realised that i sigh quite alot nowadays.. not conciously though.. i just sit at the computer and do my work, and suddenly a sigh will escape from me! maybe it's just the way i think, coz i find it do it the most when i'm trying to concentrate really hard!
anyway, here's a whole bunch of quizzes i just took!
What Eyes Do You Have?
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What Aspect of Run Lola Run are You?
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What's Your Bedroom Personality? (For Her)
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What Lesser Known Love Song Are You?
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What Unconventional Movie Heroine Are You?
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ohh boy, and i don't like penelope cruz! but i guess for this instance, i'll just like her character instead!
Saturday, October 26
[saturday shopping]i went shopping with my mother today, under the pretext that i needed an outfit to wear to my cousin's wedding dinner. that was all an excuse, of course, because my mother ended up buying a whole lot more stuff than i did, and still there's no outfit for the wedding! but it wasn't too bad, i managed to get two pretty great skirts, and this lovely lace singlet (black of course, i seem to only buy black tops nowadays!) my mother's total tally included an outfit from celia loe (it was like 70% off!), two tops from miss selfridge, a guess watch, some earrings and rings and undies (no, i'm not describing how those look like!)
all in all i'd say it was a good shopping day :)
it'd have been nice if i could have found more stuff to buy, but what can you do? i guess this season's stuff isn't quite me..
but then again, what sort of fashion is me?! hehehe..
last night i met up with an old friend of mine.. she's one of those wonderful people that's always there for me, even when we don't get the chance to meet up very often. we sat and we talked, we ate and we walked, it was a really lovely time with just the two of us. and i think that sometimes that's what we really need to do - to just sit down and have a chat with an old friend. we didn't necessarily talk about problems and things that were wrong, but we just talked about life in general. it probably helped that we had a wonderfully comfortable couch to sit and talk on! made for some interesting people watching! hhehehe...
here's a pretty funny joke that someone sent to me:
A man was sitting reading his paper when his wife hit him round the head with a frying pan.
"What was that for?" the man asked.
The wife replied "That was for the piece of paper with the name Jenny on it that I found in your pants pocket".
The man then said "When I was at the races last week Jenny was the name of the horse I bet on"
The wife apologized and went on with the housework. Three days later the man is watching TV when his wife bashes him on the head with an even bigger frying pan, knocking him unconscious. Upon re-gaining consciousness the man asked why she had hit again.
"Your horse phoned"
Thursday, October 24
this just goes to show just how weird the world is getting nowadays!Clippings of Elvis Presley's hair collected by his hairdresser are to be auctioned next week. Bidding for the clippings, which come with letters of authenticity from hair-collecting experts, will start at $10,000.
hmm.. i wonder how much that hair exhibit in the esplanade is worth!
and what about this?
MOSCOW - Armed Chechen rebels seized hundreds of hostages in a Moscow theatre late on Wednesday, demanding an end to the war in Chechnya and threatening to blow up the building if security forces tried to storm it.
ARMED rebels took HOSTAGES, demanding an END to the WAR?! that's like fighting fire with fire! whatever happened to peaceful sit ins, or hunger strikes? or signing petitions?! ok, i admit, signing petitions probably won't work for a war, but you know what i mean!
i really can't understand what's going on with the world nowadays!!
Tuesday, October 22
[worry]i've got a lot of things on my mind.. alot of work, alot of home. i sometimes feel like i'm struggling through work, and even though i get it all done in the end, it's in that moment of panic that i'm not quite sure if this is what i should even be trying to do. i feel so drained and exhausted, like i'm going through life, not really living it, but just going through the motions of it.
life doesn't seem to be quite as funny as before, it doesn't seem to be as happy. there's always this cloud of worry hanging over me, and there doesn't seem to be a wind coming to blow it away..
my sister's going to be moving back home soon, and not that i don't want her around, but i'm afraid that sharing a room with her is going to create problems again. our room just isn't big enough for the two of us to share. as it is, i think this room can hardly contain my stuff! well, that's also because most of my sister's things are still here as well. but ... i don't know. i don't want to fight with my sister, and it's not like i'm anticipating that we will, but i'd like to avoid it if i could. my sleeping patterns have gone a bit funny the last few months, and sharing a room with someone else means that it'll either irritate them, or i'll never get any sleep.
worry worry.
life is such a worry.
Sunday, October 20
[another weekend over]the weekend seems to just fly by in such a hurry sometimes. it's like it's in a rush to get somewhere! but this weekend has been pretty good. i had a photoshoot on saturday, which lasted a little longer than i expected, but went alot better than i thought it was! i have to admit, i was quite stressed about it, because it involved 8 people! it's a good thing those 8 people were all my relatives though, so that kinda made it a bit easier... if you want to see what i'm talking about, then go buy the december issue of women's weekly when it comes out! hah!
today was a nice lazy day for me.. i've started doing my pouches and beading again, because it's the best form of therapy i can find! the only problem was trying to find something to watch while i was doing it.. there's a great lack of good shows on tv on the weekend! at least they were showing the matrix and gattaca at night.. those are two movies i don't mind watch once more. too bad the tv station decided to cut out bits from both movies. *rolls eyes* they just can't understand that movies are supposed to be shown in their entirety i guess!
alright, i think i better head to bed.. hopefully i'll have some sweet dreams!
Thursday, October 17
it's been one heck of a week i'd say. and i'm so glad that tomorrow is friday! even though i have to work this weekend. i guess when you throw yourself into a career, you just have to head into full steam! not that i'm doing this very willingly mind you, i'd still like to have my weekends back for myself!i've been feeling very stressed this whole week. i know that when shit happens at work, usually i just roll with the punches, and get it all done. but it seems that nowadays whenever more stuff lands on my desk, i end up in a mini panic attack, and i feel so lost and don't know where to start. usually it's not as bad as i think it is, and eventually the feeling of being overwhelmed lessens slightly and i can get through the day... but i guess that feeling at the back of my head keeps coming back.. the one that feels horrified that i'm going to mess up at work and it's going to become a complete disaster!
it's been almost three months since i've started work.. three months! time seems to just fly by so quickly! if only i could just stop time.. or even turn back the time! i think that'd be perfect right about now.. i'd go back to the days when i was in melbourne, just enjoying what life had to offer to me..
ohh, the good old days.. why can't life just be like that?
here's a slightly mushy email that i got, but.. it just kinda made alot of sense!
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched, They must be felt with the heart...."
A man going abroad to work leaves his fiancee crying. "Don't worry, I will write you everyday," he said. For years he did write her. But since he was happy with his job, he had no immediate plans of going home.
One day, he received a wedding invitation. His girlfriend was scheduled to be married. To whom? To the mailman bringing regularly the letters of her boyfriend! Indeed, distance does make hearts flounder.
The poor boyfriend surely explained, "What went wrong? I sent her letters, chocolates, and flowers." When relationships go wrong, the list of things given and done for the person usually crops up. We say, "I have given you this and that...I have done these things for you." It seems that love is simply proven by the bestowal of gifts and favors.
But while presents are important, love demands what is basic: 'presence of the beloved'. I have observed for instance, the orchids of my mother's. When she's away for a long time, they are unhealthy and many of them wither. But when she is around, they bloom with beautiful flowers. My mother does nothing exceptional. She just spends much time talking and caressing them.
I guess persons all the more require a caring presence. Love is fundamentally a commitment to a person. We may be committed to our business, job, hobby, sports and clubs, but strictly speaking, they cannot love us back. Only a person can love us in return, and for that matter the highest commitment as human beings is spending time with those persons we love.
And since people need affection and nourishment, material things can only help up to a certain degree in fostering love. But it can never replace the greatest gift of presence because everyone needs someone - be it friends, parents, siblings or simply that 'special' one.
Being there for someone need not necessary mean having to say alot. Words are sometimes redundant. Remember that 'presence' (to be there for someone) is more than enough. So, make your presence felt............
Sunday, October 13
Your magical style is Psychic.
What type of Magic do you work?. Take the Magical Style Quiz by Paradox
You are an angel.
What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox
Congratulations, you're a Chi Spirit, a household helper.
What kind of female faerie are you?
Take the female faerie quizby Paradox.
Congratulations, you're Seattle, the Emerald City.
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Do you give a fuck?
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this is one i got from keryl's website..
What's *Your* Sex Sign?
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Saturday, October 12
What actress are you?
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Are you Innocent or In To Sin?
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i'm so glad that it's friday! my workload looks like it's getting much heavier now, so i guess this is about the time where i start to lose the rest of my life and only concentrate on my career! *sighs!*
i guess it had to happen sometime!
i've got a ton of things i want to talk about, but my brain's just not quite working.. it's probably all the painkillers i'm taking! hah!
makes life a bit more fun though (the painkillers i mean, not the brain not working bit)
hmm.. i don't think i'm making any sense anymore!
Thursday, October 10
my wisdom tooth has been giving me a hell of a lot of trouble the last few days.. usually they hurt for about a day and then leave me alone, but this time my tooth's decided to keep on bugging me, and it has been for the last 3 days! i finally went to the doctor who gave me some painkillers and antibiotics. why i didn't go to the dentist? i did, last week before it started hurting, and she told me to just let it grow out anyway. sigh! looks like i'm just stuck with it like that for now..i bought the coldplay album the other day, intending to give it to chad.. not realising (or rather, not remembering) that he'd already bought a copy.. so i started listening to it yesterday and i'm completely in love with this album! one of the songs on the album called 'the scientist' just touched me so much because it seems to be able to discribed exactly how i feel right now.. it's for someone out there, who'll know who they are (and probably don't read this blog anyway) but if you're out there reading this, these lyrics are meant for you..
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Tuesday, October 8
You Have a Nice Ass!
Oooh, baby can you shake that booty?
With an ass so fine, it's your duty.
Give it a grab, give it a spank.
You're the envy of every skank.
What Ass Do *You* Have??
Monday, October 7
here's a wonderful email that janice sent to me.. it made me cry the first few times i read it (i'm very emotional right now! *wipes a tear away*) but i love its message..The Worth Of Our Lives
This is good. Read, pass it along and always remember. Regardless of the shape you are in, your worth in the eyes of those who love you will never diminish.
A well-known speaker started his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this."
He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied what if I do this? And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it with his shoe. He picked up the now crumpled bill and dirty. "Now who still wants it?"
Still the hands went up into the air. "My friends, you have all learned a valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, it did not decrease its value. It was still worth $20."
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless.But no matter what happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely crushed, you are still priceless to those who love you.
The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or whom we know, but by WHO WE ARE. You are special - Don't ever forget it. Count your blessings, not your problems.
~Author Unknown~
Saturday, October 5
friday five for the week!1. What size shoe do you wear?
depends on the brand, but normally about a size 7, which is a 38 i think..
2. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
waaaay too many! i've never tried counting them, but probably about 20 pairs??
3. What type of shoe do you prefer (boots, sneakers, pumps, etc.)?
that depends on my mood! but i love simple shoes like cute slippers, and when i'm in a girly mood i love wearing my heels!
4. Describe your favorite pair of shoes. Why are they your favorite?
hmm, i'd have to say my birkenstocks or my m)phosis slippers, they're my favourites coz they're the most comfortable shoes i have, and i can wear them all day and not worry too much! my most favourite pair of heels are my hush puppies, they're ankle straps 2 inch high, but great to wear!
5. What's the most you've spent on one pair of shoes?
hmm.. that'd probably be my birkentstocks.. about 100? i'm not sure i want to spend anything more than that.. although the camper shoes are tempting me!
Wednesday, October 2
very tired.my heart's aching a little. but maybe at the end of it all, my heart will be happier than before.
i probably don't make much sense but what can i say? i'm just very tired.
about me
i'm 24, a pisces, working in a magazine, sitting back and watching life go by.
i love escaping into movies and magazines, and most of all my friends.
but for now just relax, life will happen when it happens.
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